Nov. 19, 2010
This year maybe the most painful, the most regretful, the dumbest year of my life ever but this is when I found myself.. gained strength, laughed out loud and cried hard.
How can I forget this year?… the days, weeks and months when I almost cried a river, I almost drowned myself with tears.. have tried to drink, smoke (good thing, i didnt like it..and will never ever try it again..ewwww) ... I indulged myself hanging out with different peeps, with friends, strangers who cheered and laughed with me. Well I’m still lucky, I’m still am.
Whoever you are. Thank you… Thanks for making me laugh, making me strong, 4 making me realized that
life has too much to offer other than allowing yourself be stuck in a miserable situation.
Thanks for listening to my pathetic and self blameable stories.. U guys rock..
Looking forward to celebrate Christmas with myself,, nothing but myself. Cheers!
Chai, it's not an xcuse
Nov. 19, 2010
I made major major mistakes in my life and i can say i really regret those.
Im stupid, im not thinking first. I hurt a lot of people, Im selfish, inconsiderate, tactless, ...what else?. ..oh i hate myself..
Im not ready to commit more mistakes. Cant afford it. There's no righteous excuse for what I did but then again, my apology..
Sorry, I knew it... I was really hesitant and unsure about my feelings but i still allow myself enter into a relationship where im not ready yet..i was hurt then, maybe ur just someone whom i diverted my attention to...i messed up... and i even pushed myself to the corner where I duno how to find my way out... Please Im sorry.. i might not be able to talk to you after all but i blame myself for all of this.
I made major major mistakes in my life and i can say i really regret those.
Im stupid, im not thinking first. I hurt a lot of people, Im selfish, inconsiderate, tactless, ...what else?. ..oh i hate myself..
Im not ready to commit more mistakes. Cant afford it. There's no righteous excuse for what I did but then again, my apology..
Sorry, I knew it... I was really hesitant and unsure about my feelings but i still allow myself enter into a relationship where im not ready yet..i was hurt then, maybe ur just someone whom i diverted my attention to...i messed up... and i even pushed myself to the corner where I duno how to find my way out... Please Im sorry.. i might not be able to talk to you after all but i blame myself for all of this.
New life.... New love
Is it for real?
Well I can say Im happy now. I cant help but look back though. I dunno where to start, whether I'll take a big leap or brake. I'm still thinking of the past. It lingers inside.. Im afraid to decide.
Its not easy, I know, but with the help of those who are around me,,everything I guess will go smoothly..
How is it being in a relationship with a man working in an aviation? Im afraid that I might just be diverting my desolation into you but I will try.
You made my moving on process an instant..Thank you.
NOW that Im SINGLE....
Aug. 7, 2010
I have so many stories to share but Im afraid if I'll gonna detail em all, it will eat my whole damn precious day...
I realized a lot of things. I realized that I can live with bliss, with contentment, with happiness w/o someone to depend on. The best thing to do is to go out of your comfort zone...at the end of the day.. the journey is just between you and yourself.. its how you carry yourself.. The only way to experience life is to embrace changes.. how can you measure your capability if you wont try it anyway..of course know your limitations. the hardest part of moving on is the thought that I can't do it.. well I think there's no room for that.. We can always do it, I can always do it...
I realized everyday is a precious day to waste. No more cries, emo, no more lonely nights, no freakin dull moments. No butterflies in my stomach. It's time to boost my appetite. It's time to love myself.. Im too skinny, its like Im raising 7 kids coz Im literally and physically ugly. I almost forgot how to look at the mirror and fix myself. I should dress myself well this time.
I know, this is just one step to take in my million walk journey but I'll start it today.
Enjoy life while still young. YOLO.
I welcome myself into the world of the so-called... "Single".
I have so many stories to share but Im afraid if I'll gonna detail em all, it will eat my whole damn precious day...
I realized a lot of things. I realized that I can live with bliss, with contentment, with happiness w/o someone to depend on. The best thing to do is to go out of your comfort zone...at the end of the day.. the journey is just between you and yourself.. its how you carry yourself.. The only way to experience life is to embrace changes.. how can you measure your capability if you wont try it anyway..of course know your limitations. the hardest part of moving on is the thought that I can't do it.. well I think there's no room for that.. We can always do it, I can always do it...
I realized everyday is a precious day to waste. No more cries, emo, no more lonely nights, no freakin dull moments. No butterflies in my stomach. It's time to boost my appetite. It's time to love myself.. Im too skinny, its like Im raising 7 kids coz Im literally and physically ugly. I almost forgot how to look at the mirror and fix myself. I should dress myself well this time.
I know, this is just one step to take in my million walk journey but I'll start it today.
Enjoy life while still young. YOLO.
I welcome myself into the world of the so-called... "Single".
