I have been thinking a lot this past few days..
I kinda felt like there's no need to over-think anyway and just let myself go with the flow. Im causing myself depression, stress and too much pressure.
Well, this originates primarily to a possibility that I might pursue my teaching profession. A co-teacher offered me a part time job in an international school which, I was like overwhelmed that this might be an opportunity for me to switch career in few months now as I'm already fed up and stuck with my current job. Why can't I let go of this job anyway? Well, no doubt that this has secured me financially. Who would have thought that I will receive this kind of compensation on this "just" kind of task? I deserve it though considering the length of service that I have rendered to this company but the task is just so easy and self-pampering plus not to mention the benefits that we got to enjoy. Fulfillment indeed is not just about money, its about loving what you are doing and being passionate about it. I just wish someday, I'll strongly lift myself back up, take one major step and have a life totally different from where Im used to right now.
Since im not mindful about parallelism, the fact that this is an informal, self-contained diary...Im am diverting my topic into love.. what?? again??? lol.. pleadingly, please allow me... a lot of grin.. :D
Im kinda not feeling well today as I felt this insecurity and no-assurance in my present relationship. Maybe I should learn to recognize that uncertainty is part of every relationship. True.. I should not expect more. A person who truly loves does not need to be spoon-feed by what should and what not to do.
Im just tired that same issues being argued in the past repeat over and over again.
Just like what the saying says: Hurt me with the truth but never comfort me with lies.
Just like what the saying says: Hurt me with the truth but never comfort me with lies.
#justsayin
