big gurls dont cry....

April 23, 2008

Am not that kind of gal who shows weakness especially to my family.  if I can hide it, I will.  As long as I can still bear it, i will. I just don't want to be a burden to anyone.

Am just afraid to show emotions, so I cried on the inside, am not transparent - Only I can hear myself cry and nobody else can...

I'l just let it out...alone . cry hard, think of ways to lift maself up, sleep and wake up with full of hopes.


Just came across this poem.


Tears In My Room

I was in my room the whole day,
In the back of my mind, well tucked away.
No one was there except for me.
An empty room, but wait, there was more.
But just what it was, I could not tell,
And yet, I sensed that all was not well.
My spirit was troubled and it seemed to shout,
"Too long I've been captive, please, let me out!"
There in the darkness I struggled to see,
Trying to grasp what was troubling me.
I told myself that I'm tough and I'm strong,
But a voice spoke softly, "That's where you're wrong."
"You tell yourself, 'I can handle it all.
'No matter what happens, I must stand tall.'
"Let go of your pride and admit that you hurt.
"The pain that you feel, don't try to skirt.
"You're not alone with this illness you face.
"There are so many others who are in the same place.
"And rest assured, that they're frightened too,
"In so many ways, they're no different than you.
"Let go and reach out, take hold of their hands,
"No longer alone, but together you'll stand."
And then there was peace, and I wept as it came,
I knew that no longer would I be the same.
The tears in my room will forever make me strong.

:( 

am just sad.. emo mode..