June 18, 2014
I have no idea what to write tonight...yawning

Gone through browsing celebrity/entertainment sites local and international, done reading yahoo news and updates, pep, online shops, checking emails, listening to music, eat, nap, chat with peeps around.. ggrrrrr my kind of night....so sick with my nocturnal routine.  Can't quite imagine how I have endured this nature of work for more than 7 years. Yes, I may not be tired physically but this job is more than enough to make me feel drained after the end of the shift. This is a mental torture.

My body didnt even have a chance to enjoy what it's like to sleep straight at night, nevertheless, im used to it. If I will have to choose between these working times, I will still prefer to be active at night.

I duno what health risk and possible effects in due time but I always see to it that I'm fit & healthy and is always mindful of every bit of pain I felt physically.

I swear, I hate computer's already.  I wish they were not invented at all..I cud have been enjoying an active lifestyle right now plus living a normal life.  #feelingdizzy #sadface

June 17, 2014
You will only measure the true and deep love if you have the element of time, distance, quarrels, misunderstandings and all the nega sides of bein in a relationship. It’s about how you would respond to it, would you give up, let go or sit down and work it out.

If you’re still happy amidst the arguments, go for it. If it’s more of pain and suffering though, rather than a happy, content and inspiring relationship, then I guess you know what to do.

Well, many of us girls misunderstood this, including me in the past..were too blinded that we even ignore every pain we feel towards our partner because of our love.  Even if we see clearly how painful where we stand at, we tend to still build our hope and fight for that petty love. Of course, I understand women, myself to be specific.. faithful, loyal, tolerable to pain, caring, sweet, will give her partner the sun and the moon and so on and so forth, however, we should also not forget ourselves. Girls, we should maintain our focus.. keep our composure, take care of ourselves, our hearts, guide our emotions.  being in a relationship should always make us feel beautiful (even if were not :D), should inspire us, to motivate, to excel in what we do ant the like.

Oh, Im just affected by the FB statuses of my gal friends venting out about their heartaches. Been there, been that folks..If its too much pain already, get out of that relationship.. A man that truly loves won't even let a single tear drop from your eyes. In the middle of temper-rising moments between the two of you, it's not a matter of who does wrong or whose fault is it anymore; what is important is, who between you is willing to fix it, willing to embrace and say sorry...Oh well, Im guilty myself... I am not that kind of... sometimes :((

its hard to manage emotions especially if your temper boils down into your deepest core.. You just want to shout it out even if it means hurting your partner already, you want to be the righteous and will dig flaws to throw to each other to the point that no one ever wants to listen to each side anymore..

Hmm.. talking about relationship.. it really takes an nth effort to make it work and conquer every struggles along the way..for me, true love is about understanding, respect, compassion and above all, love, love and just love naturally...It is something that sprouts and blooms innately, not being forced, not out of pity or not out of practicality or any other reason.  If it's something driven by any other factors out of love itself, then you must likely have a miserable and pathetic ending. #notetoself.

something to look forward to

June 6, 2014
I have been thinking about my Korea trip this coming Autumn.  My accessibility to internet 8 hours a day kept me delighted as I browse for photos and sites to visit during my upcoming trip.

The thought of seeing you again mahal brings so much excitements plus of course the must-see and breathtaking sites waiting for a date with me. Im just excited to see you in 5 months now. I want to share memories with you. Wherever I may be, I want u beside me.. I want to capture memories with u this time. To gather pieces of us together. To compensate months of not seeing each other.  I know, there’s still uncertainties whether my VISA will be approved or not but Im positive.

Am so excited to see orange, amber, red leaf foliage of their very famous trees; maple tree or pine trees or whatever they call it. Exactly the reason why I chose Autumn among the 4 seasons. I just thought this is the most romantic place for couples to spend time with.  Stroll, sit, eat, take photographs, dine out or just simply doing nothing.  This is definitely not my last trip with you mahal. We will together explore and wander.  This isn’t just a dream, this is reality. 

Whatever the outcome might be.. im keeping fingers cross.

June 5, 2014
I dedicate this to my significant other... mahal ko :)  
Siren by Cher LLoyd

Lay down here beside me in the shallow water
Beside me where the sun is shining on us still
Lay down here beside me in the hallowed water
Beside me where the silver lining stays until
The sirens' calling.

We follow the sun down low 'til we hit the night
And you hold me so tightly, it's hard to breathe.....

celebrating a month love with u

June 3, 2014
happy monthsary my bestfriend, my buddy, my brother, my boyfriend, my one and only love, my other half.
I miss you more each day.  I LOVE YOU big time. :)